Novelist, Casper Parks - Feeling the Pulse of Society.

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I'm in one of my panic - anxiety attack traveling modes. Bouncing from state to state, feeling lost. Not sure where to settle. So, if I miss something at TOP - sorry...

I get like this every few years....

Hoping to find a peaceful quiet place soon. Charlie (11 years old) is handling it well. Driving an old 1995 Chev truck. Not a king cab, that makes it rough on him.

I am hoping to find a motel or furnished cottage weekly - monthly rental that is affordable. Something 600 a month or less.

At this point there is nowhere I want to be, other than on the road. Saving for a motor home.

What do I really want? Off the planet!

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  1. Garuda's Avatar
    May peace of mind be your travel companion...
  2. Doc's Avatar
    Casper, I hope you feel better soon. Sending warm, good wishes and healing vibes your way!
  3. CasperParks's Avatar
    Thanks....
  4. CasperParks's Avatar
    Doing a weekly / monthly motel rental in the middle of nowhere. Has wifi and basic direct tv. Able to watch falling skies. Figure on being here until middle of Sept or October. Maybe Colorado Springs after that, just not sure. Yellow Jacket nest in the outside wall next to my door. They've been spraying twice a day for three days. Fewer and fewer, but they are still around. Hoping tomorrow's early morning spraying is the end of them.

    Yellow Jackets slip inside once in awhile when going in and out. I think Charlie (kitty) may have been stung once or twice, but not sure.
  5. CasperParks's Avatar
    Quiet here, maybe too quiet...
  6. Garuda's Avatar
    Here as in on the forum or where you are?
  7. CasperParks's Avatar
    Where I am at, it is quiet... Staying in the country for a month...
  8. Garuda's Avatar
    Well, if you don't like the quiet, you could ask Fore to send some of his 'friends' over...
  9. CasperParks's Avatar
    On way to store, huge golden eagle flew from side of road about ten feet in front of truck... Wing span was as wide as windshield. Bird circled around behind truck and landed back on side of the road. On they way back, eagle was still there but had moved toward the middle of the road....
    Updated 08-21-2014 at 08:32 PM by CasperParks
  10. lycaeus's Avatar
    Hope you feel better soon.

    I looked up what an eagle means in a dream dictionary online. Shamans interpret symbols, animals and other things they see in waking life like they interpret hidden meanings in things in dreams. So does the eagle have an underlying meaning behind it?

    Dreammoods.com says:

    Eagles
    To see an eagle in your dream symbolizes nobility, pride, fierceness, freedom, superiority, courage, and powerful intellectual ability. It also represents self-renewal and your connection with your spirituality. You will struggle fiercely and courageously to realize your highest ambitions and greatest desires.
    Maybe that has some meaning to you at the moment....

    Now, what's funny is on the dreammoods.com page for eagles is there's a section on what it means to see "Garuda". So since you've recently encountered Garuda here, I'll copy what it says:

    Garuda
    To see Garuda in your dream symbolizes agility, fear, fierceness, superiority and power. You are strongly connected to your spirituality. The dream also represents your courageous struggles toward achieving your highest ambitions and goals.
    LOL those were the only two things that come up when you type in "Eagle" into DreamMoods. You get 'Eagle' and 'Garuda' who would've thunk it.

    http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/dreamdi...l&search=eagle
  11. Garuda's Avatar
    It's not what you would expect, is it?
    It's like the Spanish Inquisition.
    Nobody ever expects ...



  12. CasperParks's Avatar
    I was wondering about spiritual mean for an eagle.
  13. CasperParks's Avatar
    Motel sprayed yellow jacket entry then plug the hole. I warned them, it needed to be dusted or the yellow jackets would eat a hole from the void in the wall inside of the room. Dust first, wait a couple days then plug the hole... But noooo....

    Two days later, inside the room I killed 17 yellow jackets, Charlie (kitty) may or may not have killed two bringing the total to 19 in one afternoon and evening.

    I am not able to find an entry into the room, they could be getting in through gaps in the doorway. I duct tapped the doorway edges for the night. Wait and see what happens tomorrow during daylight hours. A rainy day for tomorrow may keep them at bay.

    Called a friend, he is at the races and out of town until late Monday... Tuesday, depending on yellow jacket issue - I may head there for a break from killing insects.

    Feeling more focused...

    I am leaning toward a move to Colorado, basically new surroundings and escape bitter cold Midwest winters.
    Updated 08-30-2014 at 05:43 AM by CasperParks
  14. CasperParks's Avatar
    Yellow are gone, more or less. See a few outside from time to time. Must be near the end of their life cycle.
  15. CasperParks's Avatar
    What a beautiful day! Nice temps, clear skies. Trees are showing signs of turning color.
  16. CasperParks's Avatar
    Back on the road, in Colorado and considering options. Motels are costly, need to settle down.
    Updated 10-05-2014 at 12:02 AM by CasperParks
  17. Garuda's Avatar
    I hope you find something soon. Better to be settled in somewhere before winter comes...
  18. earthman's Avatar
    Colorado is not a bad place. We moved because her mom lives here in Sedona and she is getting old. We want to spend time with her and take in all the spiritual surroundings here. Supposed to get ahold of Jerry Wills to. He lives over in Jerome, just a short ways from here. He was doing The Kevin Smith show for Kevin after he died. Kevin wanted Jerry to take over if he had passed but Kevin's death was pretty hard on him. I really love Colorado and will miss it. I have to go back for our gold mine in the spring. So if your still hangin out there you will have to come prospecting with us. Charlie would love it up there. He would love to chase the ground squirls up there. Give Colorado a chance brother. And if you need some extra cash, let me know. My friend in Denver works down in the springs and all over Colorado running cat 5 cable and setting up networks and such. He will pay cash and can use a hand sometimes. Pm me if you need. My old number you had for me doesn't work now but you can reach me at 720-431-2408. Remember, its dave shock. lol. I remember yours. I still have it on my Skype but cant call in the number I had for it now. Please take care, I'm now worried about ya....
  19. CasperParks's Avatar
    Colorado Springs remains in play, but have to decide before Tuesday afternoon.
  20. CasperParks's Avatar
    Left Colorado, returned to the Great Lakes area for now. Will be going back on the road in a month or two.
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